A vague thought

**Not applicable to saints and sages

Conflicting thoughts induce conflicts within self. The conflict between the heart and mind is a never ending crusade with any victory or defeat.  Morale and intuition drive heart while intellect and rationale drive the mind. Each treads a path of veracity in its own dimension, but not justified until totality is perceived.

Vulnerability of heart is not heeded by mind, and so is the case with its pragmatic sanction in a vice-versa. Ego plays the referee and that whichever has an upper hand at the moment, will inevitably give place to another.  However, mind and heart buttress each other and definitely need one another for the buildup of man’s personality and character.   

Human emotion is both a cause and cure for this phenomenon. The most challenging arcade of life is to win over his own architect, the lord of his house and material body. Most of the times, man continues to swing between infinities until both heart and mind meet. Nevertheless, they are two asymptotic tracks of life which seem to meet at a distant point, but run parallel.  This paradox is nothing but a game of priorities. A psychological paradox!!

Last Minute Effort

Negligence is one blunder that has no excuse. Its consequence results into repentance that is too late to have its say. Minor issues can make major differences. Today, such a thing led me to a missing opportunity; and here, I stand, out of place surviving the penance.

This reminds me of my childhood days, where the scores of my mathematics unit tests (generally conducted every month out of 25 marks in our school) would take the shape of an ‘almost sinusoidal curve’, if plotted.  They were never consistent but every alternate test was a full mark; 25-18-25-20- and so on.  A low mark in a particular test made me realize and alerted me for the next test, where I used to be extremely finicky .This inconsistency was mostly because of my callous attitude towards looking at symbols and complacency in performing minor calculations. It was negligence- it started then and still did not end. 

As I grew up, there were a few more instances whose aftermath effects were much more intense.  I still remember my Dad telling me- there is every chance to rectify a mistake and move forward; for example, you fail because you dint study, there is every chance that you do well by preparing for it again. There is a wide scope of improvement. But when you put in all your effort and prepare yourself and you realize that all went in vain just because of a flaw in the ‘last minute effort’, it is of no use to repent later! The hard work which we put in for the completion of a task to reach 90%= hard work we need to put in for improving the 90% to 95%. The scope is very less in this case and attaining this 5% is much more difficult than reaching the 90%. This is achieved if utmost care is taken till the completion of the task, and here comes the ‘last minute effort’- which negates the complacency attitude and eliminates negligence. That is the reason we find many in the 80%-90% group and few in 90+ range and very few in 95+ range. (The percentages are to explain the performance of a task and its evaluation out of 100).

Today, I have lost a chance to- check where I stand, to know my caliber, and finally to avail an opportunity to understand my strengths and weakness. We do not know what opportunities we get in the vicissitudes of life; I have come to realize not be very presumptuous about things and learn to live in moderation.  I wonder, if I can….

  

Innovating Life

Life-a lucrative thought for any individual! A thought which can make you feel every emotion viz. being happy to being gloomy; to love or to be loved; to detest or to be hated; to act prudent or to be foolish. It is a thought which makes you think more intense and deeper, putting forward many questions and thereby instilling zeal to inquire about them. It makes you look at things in a broader perspective to resolve the unanswered questions posed by your own self. In a way, it gives you a purpose which is, perhaps, yet to be served, but not realized still!!

The innovation through one’s life, to explore oneself gives a sense of extreme euphoria. At the same time, just as every petty thing in this world has its own “2 extremities”; - it can be extremely disastrous as well! It can be highly encouraging, at the same time equally demoralizing. Life is such an oxymoron that, innovation through it can never reach to a proper discovery, in its proper sense. At times you are a neophyte and at times you are the most erudite. It is a highly abstruse thing and outstandingly an abstract one.

According to my perception, the innovation, or more aptly the science of life is called the philosophy-  the so called philosophy, and every man has his own version of it; which need not be precisely understood by every other being. This is where we come across the overhead of not reaching to a proper discovery in its proper sense.

How does one’s existence make any difference to oneself??

I have come to realize today that life can be understood, perceived or experienced better by making yourself as the center of the universe and realizing what you can do to your level best, leaving behind all the other  worldly factors- pleasures/ temptations, false prestige, gratitude in return to gratitude,  so on and so forth. On the contrary, living your life making the rest of the world as the centre and viewing it from a radial point will leave you nothing but a sense of despair, ambiguity, and a feel of incomprehensibility about the centre itself -the world.

Your life is to please yourself at the first place, and not the world. Winning over your own conscience is the ultimate success of mankind. Please your own soul, only then you’ll be the monarch of your life lest you remain a demagogue…